That title has nothing to do with anything, just so you know. Or is it so I'll know? Sometimes my brain has plans of its own that I'm not privy to. A lot of the time "I" want things that I actually don't, or "I" don't want things that I think I should. More & more I get the feeling that I'm a loner, self-imposed or not. A lot of the time it's just too much work to be around most people; they don't really pay attention anyways. The people who say that I share a lot about myself are fooling themselves; they're the ones that know the least about me, even if I talk the most around them. Sometimes I talk to fill space, or to entertain myself. I wonder if anyone really understands me; doubtful, I don't know how my brain works sometimes.
On a somewhat related note, I started a new med to help with concentration &, hopefully, memory. I only have to take it when I want to so that's nice.
I realize that most of what I write is all about me, & I will not apologize. The rest of my life is all about other people so I can be self-centered, in my head, on 'paper'.
I have noticed that when I'm feeling emotional I listen to a lot of music. I cycle through everything until I find something fitting. I have also discovered that my depression can still be triggered while on the meds; awesome. But at least now there is more of a reason for it, even if it may be a bit of an emotional exaggeration. Every small detail is a victory.
